If you have read any of my posts, I talk a lot about the energy that surrounds our body, learning to get in touch with it and be aware of the healing powers of the energy system. Now for you folk who don’t know what that is, it is the energy that our biological body makes.

I have never seen anyone else write about their views on this topic descriptively. You see topics on Healing Energy as I have written, but what does it feel like for the practitioner or the client? In this post I am going to try and give you a descriptive view of what it actually feels like physically and emotionally when you are aware of the presence of your energy.

I cannot speak for anyone other than myself, but I thought it might be of interest to you who are reading this to get some type ofdescriptive viewpoint. If you are ever thinking of getting an energy healing regardless of modality used for example Reiki, Kundalini, Polarity,  there are some common things people experience, I would like to share these with you. Always bear in mind that everyone is different and interpretations are not always the same.

As a practitioner:

The physical feeling that comes when you are connected to the flow of energy, when you are in the process of giving a healing session is like the most out of body meditation you can imagine. All healing is meditation with intention. Not all sessions are the same, sometimes the energy is instant, other times it is slow in responding. It’s total surrender from within when the energy comes through, total freedom from body. You have become a conduit, a vessel for the flow of universal energy. The consciousness becomes totally alert, but the thinking is turned off. An electrical current that sends every cell in your body into awareness, total bliss. It feels like waves that roll over your skin and deep into the core of who you are.

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Have you ever noticed that when you are in a negative frame of mind, you can actually justify it, in fact you can more than justify it,

you love it,

you feel connected to it,

it’s apart of something you know so well, 

you are not going to let it go for anyone,

not even yourself. 

What I mean when I say this, is when you are in a bad space and your head is in turmoil with all this negative crap that won’t leave you alone, somehow, there is a part of you that is enjoying it.

As bizarre as this sounds I have experienced this myself, and have caught myself out even trying to justify it, even when I know I am trying to justify it. You hate this feeling but somehow you can justify it, the fact is, being a victim feels good because it allows you to vent some pent up anger.

The ego loves drama, but more than anything else the ego loves you… oh yes 

ME MYSELF AND I. ……OH how that sounds divine, ME MYSELF AND I.

Never does that sound better than when you are feeling sorry for yourself, this is ego at it’s best.

Feeling like the world has cheated you,

feeling like everyone gets what they want but you.  

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Nature gives you Vitality

It’s like a blanket of warmth, a protective layer, a friend you can always count on.

When moving through nature it is enlightening, it takes away all the business of the day and just floats it away.

Dragon fly in our back yard enjoying the plants.

I am always humbled at what nature has to share, there is always something extraordinary to see if you just stop for a moment and take the time to look.

There is nothing more empowering than spending time in our fantastic backyard. A backyard that is for ever changing and giving us new things to look at.

With this post I ask you to take the time, some time this week to just stop and observe the beauty of nature, be it the trees on the way to work, a flower in the garden, the cloud formations on the drive home, just breathe for a moment and feel the glory and power of nature.

I always try to take my camera if I am on a nature walk, you never know what amazing things you might get to see along the way.

Its always like a new adventure every time you wander out into nature because every day is so different.

As you slowly relax and unwind you begin to connect and zone into whats going on around you, suddenly everything seems to be easy to see.

The insects are flying all around, the birds are noisy in the trees, and the flora becomes richer and brighter in colour, nature just takes over.You feel alive and it feels like all your senses have woken up as if they had been asleep.

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One Thing We All Need To Do For Our Elderly.

We need to acknowledge our elderly and take the time to communicate with them. 

“A new study looking at the link between loneliness and premature death found that lonely older adults have a 14 percent increased risk of dying early than their peers who have strong social ties.

The study was conducted by researcher John Cacioppo, professor of psychology at the University of Chicago and colleagues. Their study was presented at the American Association for the Advancement of Science Annual meeting in Chicago.”

One Thing We All Need To Do For Our Elderly.

We need to acknowledge our elderly and take the time to communicate with them. 

Having worked with elderlypeople for years, I have seen the feelings of isolation and depression that can take hold and end the lives of those elderly people that feel they have no one. Isolation certainly is an ingredient to an earlier death for the elderly, in fact from my observations, isolation is a number one ingredient for depression in the elderly.

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So What Are Orbs? Good Question.

Some years ago I got a little obsessed about finding the truth behind the questionable Orb.  

All photo you see here were taken by myself over this period of time.

For 7 years, yes folks 7 years I worked hard to find out, was an orb explainable or was it not?

I came up with some rather interesting data.

I am a believer in anything I have experienced myself, I believe anything I see with my own eyes, hear with my own ears, experience in my own body, but in saying that I am a skeptic in regards to having to know the what, whys and whens, I am no push over.

Even a believer likes to have some foundation to base an opinion on, it can’t just be because I said so, that doesn’t work with me.

 What Are Orbs And What Do They Mean? We Will Never Know

I realised one day like many of us that in my photographs were these mysterious orbs. I started taking photos at different times of the day, weather dependant if there was lots of moisture in the air, if not (looking for water moisture) Nothing I did changed the outcome of the photographs. 

I then wrote to the camera company asking them if my particular camera (digital Olympus) was reported to have problems with orbs showing and they of course said NO but went on to tell me their opinion was  orbs were just dust particles.

I had a friend who was a photography expert. He has patented his own 3D photography cameras. He got involved with his cameras to show me once and for all, that what we were seeing were indeed dust particles. Suited me I just wanted some answers. He set up two 3D cameras right beside each other, they were fitted on to a piece of wood, there was one trigger that would set both cameras off to take a photo at the same time.

In order for the object to be a dust particle photographed on one camera, the object had to be just a couple of millimetres in front of the lens.

In the case the object was photographed in both cameras at the same time, meant that the object had to be some distance from the cameras, this wood mean it was not a dust particle.

His idea was:

If a dust particle came close to the lens and a photo was taken with both cameras at the same time, the dust particle would show up in only one photo from one camera, not both cameras as the particle could only be in front of one lens.

We did this experiment. WOW….

We put dust particles in front of one camera. The two 3D cameras took a photo, we would expect one photo to have dust orbs on it, the other photo will not have orbs at all as there was no dust..

Both cameras took a photo of one lovely orb. (Impossible if this was a dust particle) as the dust particles were only in view of one lens. We examined the photos, There were in fact no dust orbs on any photo, only this beautiful one orb on both photos. we estimated the orb was at least several metres away as the focal point for both cameras was some metres away. My friend was so horrified he took the evidence and to this day has never spoken about this since, so I do not have the evidence to show you (wish I did).

This is a soap bubble. I wanted to take photos of these just to observe the sphere shape and the motion. The motion is the same as the orbs.

I did so many experiments 

Coloured water in droplet and mist spray, cold mist spray, hot steam, below zero fog, frost molecules, dust particles, pollen particles, vacuum cleaner dust, wind particles, you name it I experimented with taking photos of it all.

There are 101 experiments you can do and 101 reasons why you will never know the truth because everyone has a different interpretation of what they are seeing.   

 I did prove without a doubt a few things.

Animals are very aware of orbs at ALL Times. Our cats would run around being stupid chasing invisible things, if you take a photo at that moment, you will see with out a doubt they are actually playing with orbs.

You can invite orbs to you and they will appear, they do have some intelligent form of communication.

Once you become aware of their energy and what they feel like (which is of a loving curious nature) you can sit outside at night with a camera and wait till they come to take a photo that way you will indeed catch an orb on camera. This is how I have managed to catch all my orbs on photo.

These are unidentified orbs. You can see the energy signature around the orb, which dust particles etc do not have.

Some people believe Orbs are people who have passed on. I personally do not believe this.

They do have an intelligence, they are loving and curious but they are not human, or of human spirit.

Perhaps at some stage they had human DNA but not now.

I can say this because of the years of experiments and experience that I have had with orbs. I sort of got to know them, you could say. I believe they are multi dimensional entities. I believe they are living consciousness, more advanced than ourselves but at the same time in saying that, we have become a huge curiosity for them, as we are able to communicate with them while being contained in a biological body.

These orbs you see here below, that have more than one orb these are interesting.

These photos were taken when there was more than one person in conversation. The photos were taken at the moment there was debate going on in regards to more than one person having an opinion about something. The reaction on the orbs was amazing..

Trying to get an orb photographed behind something is nearly impossible which makes you think that perhaps these are dust particles because no one seems to be able to get them behind something.

I have a few photo of orbs and nature but not where you can really clearly say the orb is behind the tree apart from the middle photo, I think indicates clearly the red orb is behind the tree.

It’s like I said you will never get the answers you want as everyone has their own ideas of what orbs are but I hope you enjoyed the tour of some of my orbs.

Before I leave I am putting up a photo that I took on 35mm film, I had to get the film developed.

The reason I did this was because they say orbs are a digital problem well I proved other wise with this photo.

You have to look really hard to find it here as the photo is small and the orb is very faint. There is a red orb just above the out side of the conservatory roof on the left hand side.  Difficult to see in this small photo but it is there.

 follow the arrow in to the other side of the conservatory roof and just there is a red orb, very faint.

I leave you with more photos, thanks for reading.

Happy orb hunting…

 Leave Me a comment love to hear your opinions.

FRAGILE OLD WOMAN

In Question

Sometimes I look at myself and see a fragile

old woman, returned to grasp onto

something she never had. Perhaps memories

take me back to something I never knew,

yet somehow it is close at reach…

There are times when I see a beautiful

woman, full of life and vibrant, yet not knowing

where to turn or where to look for refuge

and with that I see myself.

An old mind of memories, wrapped up in a body so much younger and alive.

The two they clash, with what was and what is, a battle of promise began in life,

I have now until to the finish, to reach what I had then.

In Between

When that happens and only then, I will be

one.

I will be content within, when she has found

her return, and the young beautiful woman

will find scope to progress and live as one.

I shall be free and have peace and harmony

this fragile old woman.

FRAGILE OLD WOMAN

27 years later looking at oneself.

I am here in this time the old woman that I see in the mirror

not so old to be old, but old enough to not be young.

In Time

The beautiful girl has vanished and the dark

hair has changed it’s colour, the skin is no

longer smooth and soft, and the body no

longer firm and slim.

But I am still here the thoughts, the

memories grasping something I still do not

know what is.

Time has been hard, and life has indeed had

it’s moments but my life is still in tact.

My mind is still alive and my thoughts still

take me places I can only write about.

I have lost, I have lived, I have cried, I have

laughed, I have been and somewhere

imprinted in some stone is the cast of my presence.

I shall remain here until time no longer exists,

perhaps buried under soil or sand, perhaps at the ocean floor.

Like this stone I shall tumble and roll with the flow of

the waves at my side, waiting for a new soul to handle this moment, this journey,

this embrace of eternity.

I have Laughed

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The Most Important Reason why You are the best Advocate in regards to your own health.

YOUR LIFE RELIES ON YOU

If you feel there is something wrong follow it up. Trust what your body is saying to you, NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES YOU NEED TO RETURN TO YOUR DOCTOR.

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Journey

Having had a smear test 6 months earlier and it saying all was fine, I got diagnosed with C3 cervical cancer when I was 21 years old.

The only reason I found out I had cancer was because I would not let up in regards to getting tested again because I knew something was wrong. When my results came through and indeed it showed cancer, I was told that the cancer was so aggressive that had I not had the test done, 3 months down the line I would be preparing my funeral.

That story is such a long time ago feels like another life time, but sine than I have had numerous operations for one thing or the other, 23 to be exact.

I have had 3 close calls to the pearly gates and have had the medical profession scratching their heads more than once, twice or even three times asking themselves what have we got here? (medical mystery)

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You are your best advocate

This lightly sums up my medical career, indeed I have equivalent to a PHD in medicine and know more about the human body (My body) than most doctors.

I have had so many strange things happen in my body, that all the specialists that I have, all laugh and joke at the fact that once they cut me open there would always be something unusual. The chances are there would be more to find than first thought, or the opposite. There will be absolutely nothing there when in fact images indicate there should be.

Thank goodness for their sense of humour.

My journey on this planet started off with resentment of being born. From the moment my mum went into labour, I protested at arms length at the fact that I did not want to come back to be born again, but alas lessons to be learned and passed on, so here am I, forceps delivered and fighting all the way.

On this incredible journey I have seen so many aspects of myself, it seems impossible to imagine there are so many. My search for answers started off as a selfish quest, to lighten my own load of burdens which I carried upon my shoulders. I was looking for ways to unload the pain and emotional trauma that I had experienced in my life.

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A Humble Thanks

My selfish quest has turned into something of humble thanks, as I learn and renew my ideas, constantly I am gifted with a ever ending flow of information and love. Constantly the universe shows me unconditional love in the rawest and most beautiful of forms. I feel like I have been blessed in so many ways.

They said I would never have children but Chris and I do have one beautiful daughter, her name being Angel because she really was our miracle baby.

I have had so many fantastic, wonderful, and surreal experiences in my life, some so truly bizarre they are unbelievable. I had the best parents anyone could ask for. I was blessed to have been given a gift, a gift that my father was aware of and in knowing this, taught me important skills when I was a child. Skills that would help me learn about myself, skills that would help me deal with my life. My father taught me the power of the mind.

What started off as a selfish quest to lighten my load has turned into a lifetime of gathering and teaching the unconditional love that the universe bestows upon me.

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Blessed

Why have I had so many different amazing experienced in my life?

I learned and listened, to what the universe was saying.

I survive all the crap that I have had to endure, because of this, it has set me up in a perfect position, to be a conduit.

Here are some situations in my life that were crap, but in saying that these situations helped me become who I am today so I am truly grateful.

I know what it’s like to keep a secret for many years because of fear, because as a child one man using Neuro Linguistic programming told me that it was my fault, my parents would hate and punish me, they would not love me, if ever I said to them that he was touching me.( 7 years of sexual abuse as a child) I SURVIVED
I know what it is to struggle with spirituality, afraid of religious doctrines, afraid of burning in hell, I lived with demons every day. Real and spiritual. I SURVIVED
I know what it is like to be deluded, thinking that you have all the answers about what is good for your life, this deluded thinking took me down some very dark and dangerous pathways. I SURVIVED
I know what it feels like when the noise of life gets so loud in your head that you can not find your own thoughts anymore. I SURVIVED
I know what it’s like when you suddenly realise you no longer exist in the equation, that all your passions and dreams have withered away on the ocean shore, and that you are drowning in an ocean of lost hopes and dreams, leaving you feeling pointless. I SURVIVED
I know the feelings of losing unborn children, two children I did not physically meet. I SURVIVED
I know what it feels like to be an empath, when you feel someone else’s pain, the emotions pumping through your veins, the depression, confusion and pain but there is nothing you can do, because you don’t even know their name. I SURVIVED
I know what it’s like to be faced with your own mortality, are you going to die, is this the end of your life, Is today going to be your last day. I SURVIVED
I know what it’s like to have to learn to walk all over again, after surgery, wondering if you will ever run or enjoy life as you used to. I SURVIVED
I grew up with a view of the world that was different to what everyone else saw. I grew up with an insight as to what was behind the veil. I SURVIVED
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Listen to Yourself

Life is strange, complicated and odd in many ways but it is exciting, fascinating and all inspiring in so many other ways, it is continually calling me to pursue more courage for more knowledge.

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Nobody knows your body better than you.

Listen to everything your intuition is telling you.

Be an Advocate for your own health, take charge, take control, follow through on intuitive feelings.

DO NOT let the medical profession bully you, belittle you or ignore you. !!!

Be strong get your answers, get results, don’t settle for a non explanation.

I kept a journal for my daughter, I started writing it in 1994. Very time I went in for surgery I knew there was a possibility that I would never come home, The more surgery you have the higher the risk of complications. I would write to Angel like it was the last thing a mum would write to her daughter always telling her how proud I was and how much I loved her.

My Dad gave me an incredible gift.

My dad taught me when I was 4 years old the value of mind, the value of concentrated energy and thought. This has at the end of the day got me through so much, it gives me strength when I need it the most.

I did not like church, and always had an issue with church authority even as a little girl. My father new this and in order for me to sit quietly in church for an hour he taught me a game. He would tell me to stare at the back of someones head that was near the front of the church. He told me if I stared at the back of their head long enough and really concentrated I could get them to turn around and look directly at me, but they would not see me. Sure enough this game kept me busy and entertained for the hour, and dad would often give me a nudge with his elbow when he saw the whole front row turn around and look our way…

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The Gift of Mind

This valuable skill that my dad taught me has helped me deal with physical, mental and emotional pain. What my dad taught me was how powerful the mind and thought could be, in fact it was not until I got much older that I realised just how powerful all this stuff could really be.

I say I am a conduit because I do not have the answers to all the unexplainable events that have happened in my life, events that have no logical explanation so I have come to the conclusion there is a bigger source playing it’s hand, and I am but the vessel. Like each and everyone of you, we are all vessels. Now is the time to share with you my story.

Much of what I will be sharing with you in my blog are things that have deep meaning for me. I have struggled with health problems all my life, and when my dad died I found one of Louise Hays books. From that day I have questioned every thought, trying to find clues as to where my thinking has failed me as to why I have had so many health problem, but I have learnt it is not in my thinking, it is simply my journey.

Someone asked me on one of my posts what website was I sourcing my information. I was a little taken back at first, wondering why someone would ask such a thing but then I realized I take for granted what is in my head. I have my own website which I put together while I was in Canada. I have not been practicing healing since my return to New Zealand so the website is on the back burner while I explore my place in blogging.

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Now I Write

Everything I post in this blog is in the hope that I will be helping/teaching someone something that they find useful and enlightening. I have been blessed to have had some real crap in my life, of which I am grateful for other wise I may never have learned the knowledge I have now.

Our lives are uniquely our own experience. We all have a job to help those that need our support, if we have survived, we can help others survive.

Love and light to all, stay strong and listen to your body when it speaks, it is trying to tell you something.

Like you I have struggled endlessly to find my purpose, I have stopped looking now and just decided to write.